Soundtrack of my Life – Entry #7 – Something More – Sugarland

Sometimes life can be so automatic, so much of a routine, that you can easily lose track of your purpose. At least I found this to be true. And nothing is more able to get you back on track with your purpose than a crisis. I have also found this to be true…sad to say more times than I’d like to think about.

Crisis can be presented in many ways, shapes and forms: the death of a family member, the crippling heartbreak of a love lost, or the phone call from your doctor that confirms your deepest fear. But what all of these heart wrenching experiences have in common, is the opportunity they give to those who can see it. Crisis, in many ways, is a good thing. It allows you to search within and really think long and hard about what makes you happy. In focusing on what truly matters, crisis can ultimately bring you personal fulfillment and joy. What crisis does most effectively is make you realize how precious every second of life is. It compels you to grab on with both hands and pull yourself toward things you could never imagine yourself doing. At least that was the case for me.

I never thought at this age I would be taking a detour on my journey and starting another path through undiscovered territory. That I would be trying on yet another version of myself, but here I am. This song by Sugarland came at a time of crisis, when I was feeling particularly bad about choices I had made at the time. No matter how dark things may seem, this song reminds me that there is always hope for those who strive to find it.

I may never change the world with what I write, it is fantasy romance after all, but it doesn’t matter since I have finally found something that I can connect to, something that makes me happy. As I try to sort out problems in my mind and make sense of the world through my writing, I realize that all of the experiences I’ve had throughout my life, have finally led me to my purpose. Now more than ever this song urges me to move forward. I realize now that there is something more…and I’m going to grab onto it with both hands.